Hi There!
For those that don't know me, welcome to Moore 2 Fitness & my new blog post. Growing up I used to love to write & all things English so I thought I would try to have a go & get back into it. (we'll see how we go!)
2020.......... wow what a mixed bag huh? At the start of this year we up'd & relocated our little family to Broome, something we had planned & looked forward to for a very long time however it has come with it's fair share of boulders to navigate oh & then there was COVID ;-)
In April my husband ended up starting in a new job & while we had geared up for him to start a FIFO life with his long term employer the universe had other ideas (the stars aligned much better but also changed things), though we definitely had not planned for it to look the way it does now. In the end my husbands new job has a roster of a 2/2 basis which now sees me running solo for a couple of weeks at the time. Running solo has it's perks because you feel like at times you get into a really good groove & the swing of things BUT then there are weeks that sh*t just hits the fan on a daily basis.
On top of the usual chaos of a household, this past week I have dealt with tears, tantrums (from both the girls & I), extracurricular activities, an upset trainer/assessor that gave my the 3rd degree as I was "late" for pre-COVID checks prior to a course starting even though I literally ran from school drop to try organise myself & be on time, a head FULL of nits which meant a treatment in everyone's hair as there is no taking chances with those little critters & then a 10pm wind down to have dinner, a last minute shop dash between appoints to get a black shirt for a school assembly, did I say melt downs?!? Well let's just add in more melt downs, broken nights sleep & a staffy that is hell bent on me getting up prior to 5am each morning to take him for a walk.
But then in between the HARD, there is the really amazing moments. The laughter, the high fives, the moments where I think heck yeah I really did do something right. We wouldn't change it for squids & each day I try to focus on the things we have to be grateful for, which are many.
Due to the mass amount of changes, my own health & well-being which previously consisted of some form of movement regularly, has been the furthest thing from my main priority so far this year. To be honest telling people I am qualified as a Personal Trainer has me currently feeling embarrassed BUT then I remind myself to pull up my big girl pants & ask myself if I have done the best I can? My answer is YES as I choose to show myself the compassion I would show any of my clients. This year my main focus has been on the mental health of my entire family which at the very beginning was not in a great place, my own mental health, the transition that comes from any form of change & this year we have had a lot!
I decided to try a new job on a part time basis which turned out not to be for me & most of all I have focused on my girls as a number 1 priority in all aspects that a mother can... below is a snapshot of what my brain looks like when I think about any of my little ladies:
- Do they like school?
- Have they found new friends who love them for being exactly who they are?
- Are they good friends?
- Playdates, yeah maybe I should organise more.
- Bullying: why, just why!?! (also = me in tears @ the Deputy's office)
- Are they struggling at school? Or do we need to invest in extra tutoring?
- Gymnastics...... yes let's get them back into gymnastics. Do they remember the things they learnt? Will they still love it like they used to?
And then there is also the usual parent thing of:
- I feel meh..... my pants don't fit like they used to but I am too tired to get out the back & push myself like I need to.
- How many days until hubby is home? Will we all survive until then? Am I going to lose my sh*t yet again?
- Bills - what have I forgotten?
- School Notices, what have I forgotten that's I need to put in my diary again?
- Budgeting.... how can we do better?
- Food: man do we have to eat? I just don't feel like thinking about cooking
The mental load of any parent whether that be a mother or father can be huge. As a Mum, not just is my head in constant over drive, I find myself constantly taking on the emotions my kids are feeling & that in itself can be exhausting.
On top of that I love to drive myself to learn, engage in the things I love that fill up my cup & challenge myself. So here we are....... I have been working so extremely hard here behind the scenes on my website among other things & have been in the process of starting up this little business again. Gosh is digging deep on your why's/what's + making sure all my systems/processes all in place as I want them to be hard work BUT in following my heart I am already a lot happier.
I am not sure where this blog will lead & really this post is really about nothing in particular other than to say yes I get it, be a mother or not, we all have hard days/months/years. I see you, just know that WE CAN do hard things & by putting that one foot in front of the other today, I am proud of you!
All we can do is try to do the best we can with what we know & have. That is totally AOK!
Until next time...
Karls xxx
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